Hehe sorry for my empty post.
I know today isn't Tuesday, it's obviously my other triple free day, Thursday. But I couldn't help but make a post about Tuesdays. I LOVE Tuesdays!
Back in elementary school I always had gym (favorite subject back then) on Tuesdays!
Back in 6th grade I also had gym on Tuesdays. =D Talk about awesomeness.
In 7th grade my Tuesdays were Math Free Spanish Free Free Science Social Studies, isnt that awesome?
Last year my Tuesdays were Lab Free Free Global English Spanish Math, double lunch and a lab! Talk about awesome morning. ^__^
This year my Tuesdays are Math Spanish Lab Free Free Free Global. Awesomeness? Thought so! AND this year my Tuesdays are with the awesomest people! It's so cool!
Now moving onto "real" stuff as Dou likes to call it, although I'm not sure what real stuff is in his opinion...heh
9 days till a month <3
13 days till Winter Break
9 days of school till Winter Break
I'm so excited for Winter Break! I want snow though. hehe.
Late night conversations with the randomest people.
Waking up to see the world covered in a pure sheet of newly fallen snow.
The crispness of the air after it snows.
Seeing your breathe as you breathe out cause the air is cold enough.
Christmas lights in the nighttime.
Wrapping paper designs.
Getting tangled in tape and ribbon.
Taping my finger onto gifts by accident.
Seeing everybody smile.
Warm drinks in cold hands.
Warm drinks as they go down your throat and warm up your entire body.
Putting your face over the steam from warm drinks to warm yourself up.
How about just warm drinks?
Comfy winter scarves.
Walking into your home realizing its SO MUCH WARMER.
Roasting your hands over the heater.
Eating snowflakes as they fall from the sky.
Coming back from playing for hours in the snow and realizing that your floor is warmer than your feet.
Snow sinking into your gloves and somehow going down your shirts, melting into water that just sits there.
Building snowcakes, cause I epically fail at making snow men, although I'm pretty good with making snow balls.
Writing on the snow that falls on car windows.
Slipping on the ice when it rains a bit after it snows.
Clinging onto fences to stop from slipping.
Running from revengeful people who don't understand that when I throw a snowball at them, they shouldn't throw one back in attempt to kill me. (ROFLMAO)
Stuffing snow down other people's shirts and hearing them scream at me in anger.
Watching snowflakes melt on your hands as they fall from the sky.
Colors everywhere, all of the lights decorating the sky.
Winter holiday carols coming up next week! TOTALLY!
Wanna request some carols?
=D
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
Because I Can
I feel like doing something crazy. Something that can get me killed. 50/50 live/die chance...maybe even 25/75 live/die chance.
Something that would make me feel glad that I'm alive and make me feel lucky.
I cant do this anymore.
I really cant.
My home doesn't smell like home anymore, it smells like cigarettes.
My clothes don't smell like me anymore, they smell like cigarettes.
My bed isn't mine anymore, it's my bad grandma's.
My clothes are't mine either. They're all in what used to be my bedroom, which I don't go into anymore why? Because going in there is like walking myself into hell.
My privacy isn't mine anymore. The old lady walks in whenever she feels like it, reguardless if your naked or whatever.
Nothing I own is mine anymore. The floor where I get to sleep even got invaded by a fucking spider, and you know what? That spider is still alive cause the old lady said that they're good luck. fuck her.
I sleep in the same room as my mom and my dad on the floor when the old hag next door has her own queen sized bed...aka my ex-bed why? because nobody, not even her own son is willing to sleep next to her. The room outside is perfectly fine but I'm not allowed to sleep there because its "too cold". I find that completely ridiculous. So instead I sleep on the floor, wake up every morning looking at the dust bunnies under my parents bed with an aching back, and I have nowhere to change. I can't go into my ex-room cause the hag is still sleeping, I can't change in my parent's room cause my dad is there, I can't change in the bathroom cause my mom says so without any reason, and I can't change in the perfectly valid room outside, cause it's too cold.
You know how some people can't focus on anything when someone else is glaring at them? Well I'm that type of person, and having a grandma who does not respect anyone else at all implies having an 83 year old bitch glaring at the back of your head for 10 minute periods at 5 minute intervals. If my parents thought i was slow with homework before, it's at least 7x that now.
I don't want to come home anymore. It's not home anymore. It doesn't feel like home, it doesn't smell like home, it doesn't even look like home. Sure I've never liked coming home in the first place, but it's ridiculous when you have NOWHERE in your own home to stay without being bitched at.
I hate this. I hate this so much. I hate everything that's been going on. Can't the bitch just leave me alone? Why the fuck does she have to mind everyone's business and then bitch about it? Why does my mom have to go and say bad things about me whenever she gets the chance? Why does my dad always call me useless when I'm trying? Why doesn't anyone in my family understand that I have a lot of stuff to do and that I need some sort of escape or life? Why doesn't my dad understand that nobody other than him enjoys spending time with his mom? Why doesn't my mom understand that everybody else in the world has their problems too? Why doesn't the bitch understand that nobody likes her?
I really really really want to just disappear. I want to just vanish and never have to come back. To not have to ever get home cause the streets are a lot more comforting than this one square foot of supposed privacy.
I hate everything thats been going on. I hate it.
Something that would make me feel glad that I'm alive and make me feel lucky.
I cant do this anymore.
I really cant.
My home doesn't smell like home anymore, it smells like cigarettes.
My clothes don't smell like me anymore, they smell like cigarettes.
My bed isn't mine anymore, it's my bad grandma's.
My clothes are't mine either. They're all in what used to be my bedroom, which I don't go into anymore why? Because going in there is like walking myself into hell.
My privacy isn't mine anymore. The old lady walks in whenever she feels like it, reguardless if your naked or whatever.
Nothing I own is mine anymore. The floor where I get to sleep even got invaded by a fucking spider, and you know what? That spider is still alive cause the old lady said that they're good luck. fuck her.
I sleep in the same room as my mom and my dad on the floor when the old hag next door has her own queen sized bed...aka my ex-bed why? because nobody, not even her own son is willing to sleep next to her. The room outside is perfectly fine but I'm not allowed to sleep there because its "too cold". I find that completely ridiculous. So instead I sleep on the floor, wake up every morning looking at the dust bunnies under my parents bed with an aching back, and I have nowhere to change. I can't go into my ex-room cause the hag is still sleeping, I can't change in my parent's room cause my dad is there, I can't change in the bathroom cause my mom says so without any reason, and I can't change in the perfectly valid room outside, cause it's too cold.
You know how some people can't focus on anything when someone else is glaring at them? Well I'm that type of person, and having a grandma who does not respect anyone else at all implies having an 83 year old bitch glaring at the back of your head for 10 minute periods at 5 minute intervals. If my parents thought i was slow with homework before, it's at least 7x that now.
I don't want to come home anymore. It's not home anymore. It doesn't feel like home, it doesn't smell like home, it doesn't even look like home. Sure I've never liked coming home in the first place, but it's ridiculous when you have NOWHERE in your own home to stay without being bitched at.
I hate this. I hate this so much. I hate everything that's been going on. Can't the bitch just leave me alone? Why the fuck does she have to mind everyone's business and then bitch about it? Why does my mom have to go and say bad things about me whenever she gets the chance? Why does my dad always call me useless when I'm trying? Why doesn't anyone in my family understand that I have a lot of stuff to do and that I need some sort of escape or life? Why doesn't my dad understand that nobody other than him enjoys spending time with his mom? Why doesn't my mom understand that everybody else in the world has their problems too? Why doesn't the bitch understand that nobody likes her?
I really really really want to just disappear. I want to just vanish and never have to come back. To not have to ever get home cause the streets are a lot more comforting than this one square foot of supposed privacy.
I hate everything thats been going on. I hate it.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
I felt like writing.
So I felt like writing. And this is what i wrote:
Don’t ask me who I am
For I am in the wind that goes through your hair as you fly on the swings
The loving glance that mothers give
The fire that burns in the middle of winter, waiting for Santa Clause to come
The cookies that bake in the oven; slightly burnt on the outside but chewy inside
The taste of water.
The red tint on new love’s cheeks
The weeds growing in the cracks of the sidewalk
The words that never get pronounced the ways they should
The diluted taste of soda when the ice melts
The realness of dreams.
So random. I didn't even know what I was writing. I just felt like writing.
I feel like smiling. I feel like crying. I feel like im torn between emotions.
I'm confused about what I want to say.
So I'll just keep rambling.
Things were better back then. Things are always better sometime back then.
Back then is nonexistant by anything other than your memory.
Photographs don't explain back then. Videos don't replay your experience of back then. Back then is a lie.
But back then will always be better.
My wall is very white. So plain. So clean. So readily taintable.
Maybe one day, I'll take a paintball gun and shoot some color onto it.
Maybe the wall is like me. Maybe the wall is what i want to be. Maybe the wall is what I should be. Maybe the wall is what I'm not. Maybe the wall is what i will be.
If everything were to disappear, we would eventually question their existence in the first place. If my chair were to disappear, eventually I would think that it was my imagination that decided to make me think that there was a chair there.
Colors. Vibrant colors bring things to life. Does that mean that black cats are not alive? Does that mean that white dogs are not alive? What is a vibrant color?
Is life symbolic? Am I a metaphor for the world?
What is the meaning of life? The desire to continue living on?
All things come to an end, in one way or another. Things forgotten, die.
Let's go and have a party while we can. Let's live like there's no tommorow just because. Let's dream about waking up cause it will. Let's scream like complete maniacs cause we can. Let's dance like losers cause we are. Let's flip out at smallest things to show we're alive. Let's let loose just because we will.
(Boys Like Girls - Great Escape)
Find something in the world that won't disappear. Take that, and bungee jump into life with it. Just don't take the bungee cord. See how far you can go before you realize you'll die once you hit the ground.
(Linkin Park - In The End)
dot dot dot dot dot
something something mayday
dot dot dot dot dot
somethign something
tic toc
something something
tic toc
lmao lyrics fail but its in korean =P
(Brown Eyed Girls - Sign)
Listening to --> Big Bang - We Belong Together
Music is a passion, it's a hobby, it's a collection. Music is my lover.
(Skye Sweetnam - Music is my boyfriend)
Life won't stop for you, keeping up's all you ever have to do.
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
Listening to --> Teresa Teng - Wo Zhi Zai Hu Ni
Im in a loving mood XD
end post nao!!
Don’t ask me who I am
For I am in the wind that goes through your hair as you fly on the swings
The loving glance that mothers give
The fire that burns in the middle of winter, waiting for Santa Clause to come
The cookies that bake in the oven; slightly burnt on the outside but chewy inside
The taste of water.
The red tint on new love’s cheeks
The weeds growing in the cracks of the sidewalk
The words that never get pronounced the ways they should
The diluted taste of soda when the ice melts
The realness of dreams.
So random. I didn't even know what I was writing. I just felt like writing.
I feel like smiling. I feel like crying. I feel like im torn between emotions.
I'm confused about what I want to say.
So I'll just keep rambling.
Things were better back then. Things are always better sometime back then.
Back then is nonexistant by anything other than your memory.
Photographs don't explain back then. Videos don't replay your experience of back then. Back then is a lie.
But back then will always be better.
My wall is very white. So plain. So clean. So readily taintable.
Maybe one day, I'll take a paintball gun and shoot some color onto it.
Maybe the wall is like me. Maybe the wall is what i want to be. Maybe the wall is what I should be. Maybe the wall is what I'm not. Maybe the wall is what i will be.
If everything were to disappear, we would eventually question their existence in the first place. If my chair were to disappear, eventually I would think that it was my imagination that decided to make me think that there was a chair there.
Colors. Vibrant colors bring things to life. Does that mean that black cats are not alive? Does that mean that white dogs are not alive? What is a vibrant color?
Is life symbolic? Am I a metaphor for the world?
What is the meaning of life? The desire to continue living on?
All things come to an end, in one way or another. Things forgotten, die.
Let's go and have a party while we can. Let's live like there's no tommorow just because. Let's dream about waking up cause it will. Let's scream like complete maniacs cause we can. Let's dance like losers cause we are. Let's flip out at smallest things to show we're alive. Let's let loose just because we will.
(Boys Like Girls - Great Escape)
Find something in the world that won't disappear. Take that, and bungee jump into life with it. Just don't take the bungee cord. See how far you can go before you realize you'll die once you hit the ground.
(Linkin Park - In The End)
dot dot dot dot dot
something something mayday
dot dot dot dot dot
somethign something
tic toc
something something
tic toc
lmao lyrics fail but its in korean =P
(Brown Eyed Girls - Sign)
Listening to --> Big Bang - We Belong Together
Music is a passion, it's a hobby, it's a collection. Music is my lover.
(Skye Sweetnam - Music is my boyfriend)
Life won't stop for you, keeping up's all you ever have to do.
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
Listening to --> Teresa Teng - Wo Zhi Zai Hu Ni
Im in a loving mood XD
end post nao!!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
WOAH! IM POSTING!
Heh, so I haven't posted since the beginning of this school year. I feel so guilty for that...really.
Life has been okay recently and is on a crash course for the worse. WOOT? maybe idk.
So many things have been happening, so many new things, people who I've met like 6 months ago are now my closest friends (coughcoughyouknowcoughwhoyouarecough)
Things that I would have never expected to happen are happening, and maybe good things do fall apart for better things to fall together.
It's like every time something super good happens, a bad thing happens to counter it, and despite that, I find it perfectly fine. As long as it doesn't end up killing me or someone I love, I really don't want to mind any of the bad things anymore. Sure, I know, I'm probably going to give up on that and be a hypocrite and rant my ass off about something on my next post, for now, I want to maintain this Utopia-esque view I have.
I think I haven't been posting because it's hard to post when you don't have anything super dramatic or super bad thats going on in you're life. And recently, my life has been fluxuating in the positive side of things, that I think are special enough to be something only I and whoever is there will know about. Yes, that happens to be another one of my secret motto's or whatever. The greatest things in life cannot be captured in a photograph, in a description, in a sculpture, a painting, a song, or any of the sort, why? because any of those will never be able to explain the meaning and feeling when those special moments occur.
Sure, you'll never know if they even happened without any evidence, but as long as you believe in these things and believe that they have happened, its something that will be engraved into your memory and you will be able to cherish it, for yourself through your own experience and not through something you've written.
Wow, that was like...a positive rant in it's own.
Winter break comes in 15 school days and 22 total days. Really, who can ever wait for break? My christmas plans? Well here's some:
1) Get out of my home lol
2) Spend time with friends and maybe family
3) See the Rockerfeller center tree
4) Go iceskating
5) Spend time with sangmi (yes she deserves her own category on this list)
6) Sleep
7) Remotivate myself with reasons to wake up each morning (although the need to pee and a certain someone help lmfao)
8) Have a snowball fight
9) Sing a christmas carol
10) Successfully eat a candy cane (they usually end up falling T.T)
11) Build a snowman!!!!
12) Make a snow angel!
13) Make someone happy ^.^
14) Be happy!
15) Get a certain someone for Christmas ;D
16) See a movie (lmao!)
17) Get a chocolate syringe
18) Drink hot chocolate, tons of it
19) Get a haircut (maybe, maybe)
20) Dress up for christmas! =D
Wow thats a large list ^.^
But I really love winter activities though I hate the cold.
Anyone want to do any of these things with me? My entire vacation is free except for New Years Eve, Christmas Eve, and Christmas. That means 8 days for activities! 20 things in 8 days! I'm gonna be busy!
AND OH GOD!
I need to get people christmas gifts. Tell me what you people want for christmas ^.^!
If you dont, you're going to end up getting a candycane or two, and thats just too normal and unspecial. =P
Life has been okay recently and is on a crash course for the worse. WOOT? maybe idk.
So many things have been happening, so many new things, people who I've met like 6 months ago are now my closest friends (coughcoughyouknowcoughwhoyouarecough)
Things that I would have never expected to happen are happening, and maybe good things do fall apart for better things to fall together.
It's like every time something super good happens, a bad thing happens to counter it, and despite that, I find it perfectly fine. As long as it doesn't end up killing me or someone I love, I really don't want to mind any of the bad things anymore. Sure, I know, I'm probably going to give up on that and be a hypocrite and rant my ass off about something on my next post, for now, I want to maintain this Utopia-esque view I have.
I think I haven't been posting because it's hard to post when you don't have anything super dramatic or super bad thats going on in you're life. And recently, my life has been fluxuating in the positive side of things, that I think are special enough to be something only I and whoever is there will know about. Yes, that happens to be another one of my secret motto's or whatever. The greatest things in life cannot be captured in a photograph, in a description, in a sculpture, a painting, a song, or any of the sort, why? because any of those will never be able to explain the meaning and feeling when those special moments occur.
Sure, you'll never know if they even happened without any evidence, but as long as you believe in these things and believe that they have happened, its something that will be engraved into your memory and you will be able to cherish it, for yourself through your own experience and not through something you've written.
Wow, that was like...a positive rant in it's own.
Winter break comes in 15 school days and 22 total days. Really, who can ever wait for break? My christmas plans? Well here's some:
1) Get out of my home lol
2) Spend time with friends and maybe family
3) See the Rockerfeller center tree
4) Go iceskating
5) Spend time with sangmi (yes she deserves her own category on this list)
6) Sleep
7) Remotivate myself with reasons to wake up each morning (although the need to pee and a certain someone help lmfao)
8) Have a snowball fight
9) Sing a christmas carol
10) Successfully eat a candy cane (they usually end up falling T.T)
11) Build a snowman!!!!
12) Make a snow angel!
13) Make someone happy ^.^
14) Be happy!
15) Get a certain someone for Christmas ;D
16) See a movie (lmao!)
17) Get a chocolate syringe
18) Drink hot chocolate, tons of it
19) Get a haircut (maybe, maybe)
20) Dress up for christmas! =D
Wow thats a large list ^.^
But I really love winter activities though I hate the cold.
Anyone want to do any of these things with me? My entire vacation is free except for New Years Eve, Christmas Eve, and Christmas. That means 8 days for activities! 20 things in 8 days! I'm gonna be busy!
AND OH GOD!
I need to get people christmas gifts. Tell me what you people want for christmas ^.^!
If you dont, you're going to end up getting a candycane or two, and thats just too normal and unspecial. =P
Saturday, October 3, 2009
WOAH!!!
WOAH! I haven't posted in the longest time! Insane! More than three months!! Damn!
Either way, summer was awesome!! My bipolar state takes over once again as I move into the school year. 9th grade gives so much more homework then I need. >.<
Right now, it's 11:26PM, pretty late, and I'm starting to enter my Euforic state of mind. =D
Now as I drift off along my thoughts:
1) Mooncakes --> Today is the official mooncake festival day!! Didn't really spend it at home...and I didn't really eat any mooncakes...which I find kind of sad.
2) Kevjumba --> It's cause I was watching his youtube videos earlier. Heh...youtube posters are so awesome!!!!!! xPPPPP
3) Showering --> After I type this I'm gonna go and shower and then spend the rest of the night going even further into my beautiful line of thought which is filled with utter blasphemy.
4) Kisses --> So a while ago, I had a conversation with Sangmi about kisses. I know, we're so awesomely weird! Either way, I wonder how a kiss actually feels, other than my sister who was a pedophile at the age of 7 and stole my first kiss before I could even talk. Heh. Has anyone who reads this had a first kiss yet? Wanna share your story? I'm all ears!! ^__^
5) Dreams --> So people who've known me for a while, know that I have the most effed up dreams. Like not effed up as in horrible dreams, just that their always SUPER weird and more than likely to be nightmarish. And it's not that I mind getting scared out of my mind and then peeing in my pants, (okay I DO mind and I DONT pee in my pants, for the record) it's just that I want to sleep well and actually get completely rested for once in my life.
6) Cold --> Is it just me or have the seasons recently gone "winter spring summer winter"? Cause this year it went from 90 degrees straight to 60 degrees...there's was literally NO fall..It feels like winter already and even better, they don't turn on heat in this apartment until we DIE of frostbitedness.
7) ADD --> How do you tell that someone has ADD? How do you tell that you have ADD? Like, seriously, I don't know how to tell...Do I have ADD?
8) Love --> Since I've been reading Romeo and Juliet in english class which happens to be one of the most "romantic" love tragedies in the universe, the topic of love should definitely come up in my mind. Well basically, in modern days, I find it quite impossible to meet someone for 3 minutes dancing, and then fall in love, and then kiss twice. Like seriously, WHO would ever do that? AND as a current 14 year old, is it even possible to "fall in love" with anyone at my age? Seriously, Juliet in Romeo and Juliet is YOUNGER than I am, and she's like...HEAD WAYYYYY over Heels for romeo so fast! It's INSANITY!! Well maybe that was the "Definition" of love during those times but in present days, I swear, you cant really "like" someone and then date them and expect it to last until you graduate from college, work for like....2 years and then marry. It's just unrealistic and impossible to find a relationship that can last THAT long without moving along.
9) My Room --> So recently, I've been demoted or upgraded whichever one you think applies from a BIG shared room that my sister who is usually at college and I shared to a small room without a heater next to the kitchen that I can officially call my own. Its perfectly fine with me, but the only reason for my "demotion/upgrade" is because my UGHHHH grandma is going to be moving in with us for like...3 months. I CAN'T STAND THE WOMAN! WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER? Moving back on topic, now my room is awesome just that I have get to migrate all of my clothes from my old room to my new one. But i SWEAR i HAVE to do this before the old lady moves in cause she will sort through everything she can reach..and seriously, who needs an 83 year old sorting through their underwear drawer? NOT ME.
10) Hunter --> AHHH FUDGE DAMNIT I really dislike school and all things school related. Why does their have to be the thing known as "school"? And why does their have to be homework? I'm in a gifted and talented school known as Hunter, i think I DESERVE LESS WORK cause I'm supposed to be able to "retain" more knowledge then the average person and therefore require less practice of the material. But nooooo they just HAVE to make us do pages and pages and read pages and pages..IT"S INSANITY!
11) Bugs --> So, this summer, I had the ultimate struggle with all things 6 legged...including butterflies. And had a human been born with 6 legs, him/her too. Why? Cause they EFFIN BIT ME! And they crawl around scaring me. Bugs deserve to die. Seriously.... OH! And, at 6 flags, there were so many bees trying to leech off of my Pizza like Dou and Michael..even though bees DON"T eat pizza! They scared me T___T.
12) Heat --> So winter's coming up ladadadadadadada and my new room DOESNT HAVE AN EFFIN HEATER!! Do they expect me to rub sticks together and kindle a flame? Or perhaps warm myself with the flame of my life? I HOPE NOT! Cause I'll be DEAD before i manage to do any of the above. My belief, the heater from the living room will explode into a bonfire which will provide a HUGE ammount of heat that will manage to wiggle its way into my room. And if that doesn't happen, I'm gonna kill the old hag.
13) Tissues --> So recently, I opened up a new husband. (I am married and then divorced to every single one of my tissue boxes). My nose has been the epitome of FAIL and therefore has had me draining my husbands "goods" XDD at insane rates...It's like my nose is going on a shopping spree or something.
Either way, long enough post to make up for the summer I think...although 3 months is a DAMN HELL LONG ammount of time. See you guys soon! Weekly posts will be called for...I think...yeah I'm bad with keeping up with these things.
[PS: The only reason I didn't post over the summer is because blogspot is BLOCKED in china which should be illegal]
Either way, summer was awesome!! My bipolar state takes over once again as I move into the school year. 9th grade gives so much more homework then I need. >.<
Right now, it's 11:26PM, pretty late, and I'm starting to enter my Euforic state of mind. =D
Now as I drift off along my thoughts:
1) Mooncakes --> Today is the official mooncake festival day!! Didn't really spend it at home...and I didn't really eat any mooncakes...which I find kind of sad.
2) Kevjumba --> It's cause I was watching his youtube videos earlier. Heh...youtube posters are so awesome!!!!!! xPPPPP
3) Showering --> After I type this I'm gonna go and shower and then spend the rest of the night going even further into my beautiful line of thought which is filled with utter blasphemy.
4) Kisses --> So a while ago, I had a conversation with Sangmi about kisses. I know, we're so awesomely weird! Either way, I wonder how a kiss actually feels, other than my sister who was a pedophile at the age of 7 and stole my first kiss before I could even talk. Heh. Has anyone who reads this had a first kiss yet? Wanna share your story? I'm all ears!! ^__^
5) Dreams --> So people who've known me for a while, know that I have the most effed up dreams. Like not effed up as in horrible dreams, just that their always SUPER weird and more than likely to be nightmarish. And it's not that I mind getting scared out of my mind and then peeing in my pants, (okay I DO mind and I DONT pee in my pants, for the record) it's just that I want to sleep well and actually get completely rested for once in my life.
6) Cold --> Is it just me or have the seasons recently gone "winter spring summer winter"? Cause this year it went from 90 degrees straight to 60 degrees...there's was literally NO fall..It feels like winter already and even better, they don't turn on heat in this apartment until we DIE of frostbitedness.
7) ADD --> How do you tell that someone has ADD? How do you tell that you have ADD? Like, seriously, I don't know how to tell...Do I have ADD?
8) Love --> Since I've been reading Romeo and Juliet in english class which happens to be one of the most "romantic" love tragedies in the universe, the topic of love should definitely come up in my mind. Well basically, in modern days, I find it quite impossible to meet someone for 3 minutes dancing, and then fall in love, and then kiss twice. Like seriously, WHO would ever do that? AND as a current 14 year old, is it even possible to "fall in love" with anyone at my age? Seriously, Juliet in Romeo and Juliet is YOUNGER than I am, and she's like...HEAD WAYYYYY over Heels for romeo so fast! It's INSANITY!! Well maybe that was the "Definition" of love during those times but in present days, I swear, you cant really "like" someone and then date them and expect it to last until you graduate from college, work for like....2 years and then marry. It's just unrealistic and impossible to find a relationship that can last THAT long without moving along.
9) My Room --> So recently, I've been demoted or upgraded whichever one you think applies from a BIG shared room that my sister who is usually at college and I shared to a small room without a heater next to the kitchen that I can officially call my own. Its perfectly fine with me, but the only reason for my "demotion/upgrade" is because my UGHHHH grandma is going to be moving in with us for like...3 months. I CAN'T STAND THE WOMAN! WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER? Moving back on topic, now my room is awesome just that I have get to migrate all of my clothes from my old room to my new one. But i SWEAR i HAVE to do this before the old lady moves in cause she will sort through everything she can reach..and seriously, who needs an 83 year old sorting through their underwear drawer? NOT ME.
10) Hunter --> AHHH FUDGE DAMNIT I really dislike school and all things school related. Why does their have to be the thing known as "school"? And why does their have to be homework? I'm in a gifted and talented school known as Hunter, i think I DESERVE LESS WORK cause I'm supposed to be able to "retain" more knowledge then the average person and therefore require less practice of the material. But nooooo they just HAVE to make us do pages and pages and read pages and pages..IT"S INSANITY!
11) Bugs --> So, this summer, I had the ultimate struggle with all things 6 legged...including butterflies. And had a human been born with 6 legs, him/her too. Why? Cause they EFFIN BIT ME! And they crawl around scaring me. Bugs deserve to die. Seriously.... OH! And, at 6 flags, there were so many bees trying to leech off of my Pizza like Dou and Michael..even though bees DON"T eat pizza! They scared me T___T.
12) Heat --> So winter's coming up ladadadadadadada and my new room DOESNT HAVE AN EFFIN HEATER!! Do they expect me to rub sticks together and kindle a flame? Or perhaps warm myself with the flame of my life? I HOPE NOT! Cause I'll be DEAD before i manage to do any of the above. My belief, the heater from the living room will explode into a bonfire which will provide a HUGE ammount of heat that will manage to wiggle its way into my room. And if that doesn't happen, I'm gonna kill the old hag.
13) Tissues --> So recently, I opened up a new husband. (I am married and then divorced to every single one of my tissue boxes). My nose has been the epitome of FAIL and therefore has had me draining my husbands "goods" XDD at insane rates...It's like my nose is going on a shopping spree or something.
Either way, long enough post to make up for the summer I think...although 3 months is a DAMN HELL LONG ammount of time. See you guys soon! Weekly posts will be called for...I think...yeah I'm bad with keeping up with these things.
[PS: The only reason I didn't post over the summer is because blogspot is BLOCKED in china which should be illegal]
Friday, June 19, 2009
Last Day
To save some time in my summer and make it longer, or at least contain more fun, im going to shrink this post down to as small as possible. To here it is, library service ended, summer has officially started, im going to china 1AM Sunday, staying there until 8/21, then im going to hang out wiht sangmi and other friends and then school starts 9/11. Hope i have the most fun and make the best out of everything. =D
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Lonely
Recently, I've been feeling rather lonely.
Maybe it's because Summer's here and I'm not seeing many people that often anymore or maybe because people just hung out with me because of school and me being a classmate. Sangmi's been busy with her graduation stuff and the rest of my friends aren't as close as her. It's been...lonely...really lonely.
I miss having people to talk to all the time. There's nobody who I can decently talk to for a long time online nowadays. There's nobody who seems like they really care. I feel..alone and i hate feeling alone.
One of my biggest fears/insecurities/flaws would be being alone. Being alone just drives me insane. The minute I'm alone everything pessimistic about me starts to come out and it leaves me a wreck. Why's everything going wrong?
I miss 6th grade...I miss my old friends where people didn't come and go.
OR i just miss 6th grade because I was the center of attention all the time. I feel like i don't have anybody to lean to for support anymore and thats a horrible feeling. Call me weak but if that's what this makes me then so be it.
After the summer, Sangmi's gonna be in bayside...So much for a shoulder to lean on.
After the summer, many things would have change and based on past experiences, I hate change.
After the summer, I may not be able to my grandma ever again, and that would kill me from the inside.
After the summer, everything might be different, and then I wouldn't know how to catch up anymore.
I hurt people without meaning to.
I don't explain myself because they dont ask me to.
They leave me slowly cause they think I'm not sorry.
And then I'm all alone, burdened with this worry. (that was an unintentional rhyme...I rhyme when upset..)
(and now since i already started lets make this into a poem >.>)
Slowly being killed by the pain they leave behind
And then when it lasts too long, there'll be none of me left to find
Insecurities break me down piece by piece
Painful stabs into my soul that never seem to cease
Soon enough I fade away and retreat to where I'm safe
So nothing else can hurt me as long as I stay locked away
You'll never know I'm missing since you left me to this pain
And eventually, no memory or proof of me will remain
long time since ive written a venting poem...yay >.>
Maybe it's because Summer's here and I'm not seeing many people that often anymore or maybe because people just hung out with me because of school and me being a classmate. Sangmi's been busy with her graduation stuff and the rest of my friends aren't as close as her. It's been...lonely...really lonely.
I miss having people to talk to all the time. There's nobody who I can decently talk to for a long time online nowadays. There's nobody who seems like they really care. I feel..alone and i hate feeling alone.
One of my biggest fears/insecurities/flaws would be being alone. Being alone just drives me insane. The minute I'm alone everything pessimistic about me starts to come out and it leaves me a wreck. Why's everything going wrong?
I miss 6th grade...I miss my old friends where people didn't come and go.
OR i just miss 6th grade because I was the center of attention all the time. I feel like i don't have anybody to lean to for support anymore and thats a horrible feeling. Call me weak but if that's what this makes me then so be it.
After the summer, Sangmi's gonna be in bayside...So much for a shoulder to lean on.
After the summer, many things would have change and based on past experiences, I hate change.
After the summer, I may not be able to my grandma ever again, and that would kill me from the inside.
After the summer, everything might be different, and then I wouldn't know how to catch up anymore.
I hurt people without meaning to.
I don't explain myself because they dont ask me to.
They leave me slowly cause they think I'm not sorry.
And then I'm all alone, burdened with this worry. (that was an unintentional rhyme...I rhyme when upset..)
(and now since i already started lets make this into a poem >.>)
Slowly being killed by the pain they leave behind
And then when it lasts too long, there'll be none of me left to find
Insecurities break me down piece by piece
Painful stabs into my soul that never seem to cease
Soon enough I fade away and retreat to where I'm safe
So nothing else can hurt me as long as I stay locked away
You'll never know I'm missing since you left me to this pain
And eventually, no memory or proof of me will remain
long time since ive written a venting poem...yay >.>
Friday, June 12, 2009
June 13, 2009 1:21 AM
Yesterday was my grandma's birthday. I forgot to wish her happy birthday...Stupid sleep. I'm obsessed with music as of now.
Many things are happening recently:
1) I'm starting to feel like a normal person...and thats not normal .lol.
2) School is ending on Monday and then its 3 days of library service. No more homework to bother me anymore.
3) I'm going to China on the 22nd in like 1 AM in the morning. Around right now just in like a few days.
4) Confused heart.
5) Sangmi's going to be moving to bayside soon and seeing her will become a completely different ordeal.
6) Everyone's going off to highschool and my old friends will be even harder to reach now. The friends I've left behind in is230 are all moving and away from each other and the thought that the fun times we had in 6th grade are gone is painful.
7) I'm going to sing until i drop dead if I want to and I wont care what anybody else says. I'm not going to be self concious anymore. Who cares what other people think? The way i act, the way i look, the way i chose to be is to impress only Me, Myself, and I.
8) I'm actually withdrawing from my Happiness bank instead of depositing..although Hunter tends to make me do that a lot. I've almost run dry of happiness and I've only been here for 2 years. I won't be suprised if by the time I'm a senior, I'd have become completely emo, unhappy, and silent.
9) Once again, China...I wonder what's going to happen this year in china...MY goal is fun.
Now, time to reflect back on this year:
-So many people grew apart from me and so many people became my friends.
- People change and if they leave me behind during the change, it's perfectly fine with me.
-I've made many mistakes in befriending people and just normal mistakes and although some of them are a bit preposterous (aka giving everyone the impression that I'm harmless, trust me, if you've known me before hunter you would know how hard I hit and how violent I am)...Next year, I would like to start with a new fresh slate.
-This year I've been horrible at managing my time, next year I'm going to work on that a little bit more.
-This year, I haven't stood out much from the crowd. Although fitting in is what general popularity wants, I want to stand out. Be my own unique person that everyone wants to be but can't. Guess I'll have to work harder next year =D
-For next year, I'm planning on reverting back to my is230 self. Not as happy go lucky as I am now and much better grades. If I don't get an A+ by the end of next year, I'll completely ditch my social life for 1 month and work on only my homework. Talk about being a nerd although ditching my social life is kind of impossible (it tends to follow me >.<)
-This year, I've been going through it without much of a goal, next year, my goal is to be as happy as I can be. If caring means that I'll be sad, then I wont care for whatever is bringing me down. I'll ignore the bad and only think of the finer things in life.
-My family as been a royal mess this year and for 9th grade, I'm thinking of forgetting about family. There's only so much of "Nancy" to split into all of my values and Family no longer seems important. Despite them being blood related to me, I find family completely pointless if they only yell at you and hit you and yell at you no matter what you do. If they don't chose to take the time to understand me, then I won't waste my time trying to deal with them. Although I really mean this statement, I highly doubt that I'll be able to ignore my family for I am too family oriented. But I'll try my best! =D
This post is getting really long...I don't think you guys want me to blab on for so much but just saying, I tend to have much more the say the later it gets. I'm totally a night person. Most creative at night, most productive at night, and most driven to work at night. If you ever want to pry secrets out of my attempt staying up until after midnight with me and then if you ask questions, chances are I will talk to you and spill everything I have. .lol.
~~ With love, Nancy
Many things are happening recently:
1) I'm starting to feel like a normal person...and thats not normal .lol.
2) School is ending on Monday and then its 3 days of library service. No more homework to bother me anymore.
3) I'm going to China on the 22nd in like 1 AM in the morning. Around right now just in like a few days.
4) Confused heart.
5) Sangmi's going to be moving to bayside soon and seeing her will become a completely different ordeal.
6) Everyone's going off to highschool and my old friends will be even harder to reach now. The friends I've left behind in is230 are all moving and away from each other and the thought that the fun times we had in 6th grade are gone is painful.
7) I'm going to sing until i drop dead if I want to and I wont care what anybody else says. I'm not going to be self concious anymore. Who cares what other people think? The way i act, the way i look, the way i chose to be is to impress only Me, Myself, and I.
8) I'm actually withdrawing from my Happiness bank instead of depositing..although Hunter tends to make me do that a lot. I've almost run dry of happiness and I've only been here for 2 years. I won't be suprised if by the time I'm a senior, I'd have become completely emo, unhappy, and silent.
9) Once again, China...I wonder what's going to happen this year in china...MY goal is fun.
Now, time to reflect back on this year:
-So many people grew apart from me and so many people became my friends.
- People change and if they leave me behind during the change, it's perfectly fine with me.
-I've made many mistakes in befriending people and just normal mistakes and although some of them are a bit preposterous (aka giving everyone the impression that I'm harmless, trust me, if you've known me before hunter you would know how hard I hit and how violent I am)...Next year, I would like to start with a new fresh slate.
-This year I've been horrible at managing my time, next year I'm going to work on that a little bit more.
-This year, I haven't stood out much from the crowd. Although fitting in is what general popularity wants, I want to stand out. Be my own unique person that everyone wants to be but can't. Guess I'll have to work harder next year =D
-For next year, I'm planning on reverting back to my is230 self. Not as happy go lucky as I am now and much better grades. If I don't get an A+ by the end of next year, I'll completely ditch my social life for 1 month and work on only my homework. Talk about being a nerd although ditching my social life is kind of impossible (it tends to follow me >.<)
-This year, I've been going through it without much of a goal, next year, my goal is to be as happy as I can be. If caring means that I'll be sad, then I wont care for whatever is bringing me down. I'll ignore the bad and only think of the finer things in life.
-My family as been a royal mess this year and for 9th grade, I'm thinking of forgetting about family. There's only so much of "Nancy" to split into all of my values and Family no longer seems important. Despite them being blood related to me, I find family completely pointless if they only yell at you and hit you and yell at you no matter what you do. If they don't chose to take the time to understand me, then I won't waste my time trying to deal with them. Although I really mean this statement, I highly doubt that I'll be able to ignore my family for I am too family oriented. But I'll try my best! =D
This post is getting really long...I don't think you guys want me to blab on for so much but just saying, I tend to have much more the say the later it gets. I'm totally a night person. Most creative at night, most productive at night, and most driven to work at night. If you ever want to pry secrets out of my attempt staying up until after midnight with me and then if you ask questions, chances are I will talk to you and spill everything I have. .lol.
~~ With love, Nancy
Friday, May 22, 2009
Food Glorious Food
Oh food glorious food!! =DD
so today i swam into the deep end of the pool for the first time in my life!! correction, its the first time ive ever been in the deep end without drowning...lol
and so with that excersize, growing me got hungry!! =P (unleash the cookie monster)
so coming home, i decided to be a glutton T___T i just made up for all of the calories that i burned while swimming...great..xDDD
well i devoured a subway footlong in 15 minutes (yay! getting my appetite back!!)
i finished a grande green tea frapuccino from starbucks (heaven!! <3)
got brownies (heh my brownie fetish) which i plan to finish by tuesday
got cookies [soft baked of course!(cookie monster! rawr!)] which i plan to finish by sunday
got icecream (which wont be sitting arround the minute it reaches over 85 degrees anymore)
and!!! this weekend is going to be filled with action packed fun!! =DD
sooo today (friday), I went swimming and faced my fear of the deep end (oh the horrors of it >.<)
tommorow im gonna be hanging out with sangmi <3 and possibly cookie!!! YAY!! and then maybe ill get to see deedee and yuuki for the first time in the LONGEST time! (and maybe even ivan and dexter/kitty! =DD)
sunday, im gonna go to passport to taiwan with my sister at union square park! hehehe bubble tea and all of the taiwan snacks that ive always wanted to try! (more good food oh nos i is such a glutton >.<)
monday, im probably going to hang out with my sister and sangmi and go see a movie (maybe ghosts of girlfriends past???? it seems soooo funny from the commercials but im not sure...heh)
tuesday, im going to school cause im such a nerd and miss airoldi needs to see my fle ^___^ oh snap i forgot to write a homework day....ill just wake up a bit earlier on monday...or do it on tuesday when i get back from school ^___^ oh and im going to quickly's with lots or maybe a little ammount of people cuz everyone loves a good bubble tea =P so tuesday seems like the get yourself together day...eeks, i dont want to get myself together!! xDD
lets hope they don't add school days to the end of the year because of these 2 days off....although some people did go...heh
my class only had 4 people today...aweomeness...=P
so yeah those are my plans for these days ^__^ nancy ding is back on track and ready to update again!
ps= sorry about not updating for soo long!!! i havent really had anything interesting to write about despite my life being known as one of the most conversation filled ones...heh...more comments please?? lack of comments gets me a little down...its like im spending so much time writing and nobody cares T___T actually just leave a "signature" or something to show you read my post, makes me feel a lot better ^___^ tyvm!! <3 (not to sound needy or anything with the last part =P)
so today i swam into the deep end of the pool for the first time in my life!! correction, its the first time ive ever been in the deep end without drowning...lol
and so with that excersize, growing me got hungry!! =P (unleash the cookie monster)
so coming home, i decided to be a glutton T___T i just made up for all of the calories that i burned while swimming...great..xDDD
well i devoured a subway footlong in 15 minutes (yay! getting my appetite back!!)
i finished a grande green tea frapuccino from starbucks (heaven!! <3)
got brownies (heh my brownie fetish) which i plan to finish by tuesday
got cookies [soft baked of course!(cookie monster! rawr!)] which i plan to finish by sunday
got icecream (which wont be sitting arround the minute it reaches over 85 degrees anymore)
and!!! this weekend is going to be filled with action packed fun!! =DD
sooo today (friday), I went swimming and faced my fear of the deep end (oh the horrors of it >.<)
tommorow im gonna be hanging out with sangmi <3 and possibly cookie!!! YAY!! and then maybe ill get to see deedee and yuuki for the first time in the LONGEST time! (and maybe even ivan and dexter/kitty! =DD)
sunday, im gonna go to passport to taiwan with my sister at union square park! hehehe bubble tea and all of the taiwan snacks that ive always wanted to try! (more good food oh nos i is such a glutton >.<)
monday, im probably going to hang out with my sister and sangmi and go see a movie (maybe ghosts of girlfriends past???? it seems soooo funny from the commercials but im not sure...heh)
tuesday, im going to school cause im such a nerd and miss airoldi needs to see my fle ^___^ oh snap i forgot to write a homework day....ill just wake up a bit earlier on monday...or do it on tuesday when i get back from school ^___^ oh and im going to quickly's with lots or maybe a little ammount of people cuz everyone loves a good bubble tea =P so tuesday seems like the get yourself together day...eeks, i dont want to get myself together!! xDD
lets hope they don't add school days to the end of the year because of these 2 days off....although some people did go...heh
my class only had 4 people today...aweomeness...=P
so yeah those are my plans for these days ^__^ nancy ding is back on track and ready to update again!
ps= sorry about not updating for soo long!!! i havent really had anything interesting to write about despite my life being known as one of the most conversation filled ones...heh...more comments please?? lack of comments gets me a little down...its like im spending so much time writing and nobody cares T___T actually just leave a "signature" or something to show you read my post, makes me feel a lot better ^___^ tyvm!! <3 (not to sound needy or anything with the last part =P)
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Madness
This is MADNESS! being this bored cannot possibly be legal! It's ILLEGAL! I DEMAND some fun!
My posts arent even long and for gods sake i didnt even post for 2 days because I've been so bored. I have nothing to say! I admit, for once, NANCY DING HAS NOTHING TO SAY! If i go like this who too long, who knows what'll happen?! I may even go back to the little shy Nancy I was in elementary! That'd be HORRIBLE! T___T
I can't wait for monday!!!!!!
My posts arent even long and for gods sake i didnt even post for 2 days because I've been so bored. I have nothing to say! I admit, for once, NANCY DING HAS NOTHING TO SAY! If i go like this who too long, who knows what'll happen?! I may even go back to the little shy Nancy I was in elementary! That'd be HORRIBLE! T___T
I can't wait for monday!!!!!!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Bored
So my post today focus's on how boring it is to stay home for this long.
Like seriously, I haven't been able to go anywhere for the last 5 days and being trapped at home feels horrible. I want cookies and brownies and starbucks right now but apparently, there's none of that at home and since I can't go out, I'm screwed. T___T
I demand 3 hugs from everyone on monday when i'm back in school. You people got me? I thought so. xD
Like seriously, I haven't been able to go anywhere for the last 5 days and being trapped at home feels horrible. I want cookies and brownies and starbucks right now but apparently, there's none of that at home and since I can't go out, I'm screwed. T___T
I demand 3 hugs from everyone on monday when i'm back in school. You people got me? I thought so. xD
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Angry
SHEESH!
WHO THE HELL WENT AROUND SAYING I HAVE SWINE FLU?
FIRST) I DONT
SECOND)NOW YOU HAVE MY MOM ON MY CASE SAYING THAT THEY'RE NOT GOING TO LET ME INTO THE SCHOOL AND THAT I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT ANYMORE SHE'S GETTING SOOO ANNOYING AND YOU KNOW WHAT WHOEVER YOU ARE, YOU'RE GONNA GET SHOT BY A BAZOOKA JUST LIKE WHOEVER GAVE ME THIS VIRUS THING
THIRD) DO YOU PEOPLE SERIOUSLY WANT ME DEAD THAT FUCKEN BADLY?
FOURTH)WHAT THE FUCK? IM SICK! I DON'T NEED RUMORS ABOUT HOW IM DOING WHEN IM SICK! HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT IF YOU HAD A MILLION PEOPLE SAYING THAT YOU'RE GOING TO DIE OR SOMETHING?
FIFTH) YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT IT IS? IT'S THE FLU! NOBODY SAID SWINE OR N1H1 IN FRONT OF IT SO IF YOU SOMEHOW HEARD 4 - 5 EXTRA LETTERS/NUMBERS IN FRONT OF FLU YOU HAVE GOT TO GET YOUR EARS CHECKED OUT!
SIXTH)IF ANY OF YOU PEOPLE ARE GONNA START ASKING ME ANY FUCKEN QUESTIONS THE MINUTE I STEP IN WITHOUT ME VOLUNTEERING TO GIVE ANY INFORMATION, IM GONNA EXPLODE ON YOU AND IF I DONT MAKE YOU CRY; YOU'LL AT LEAST FEEL CLOSE TO IT!
SEVENTH) DON'T TELL ME TO CHILL! YOU WANNA BE THE ONE LYING IN BED FOR A FEW DAYS BEING FORCED TO DRINK GALLONS OF WATER THAT TASTE BITTER TO YOU AND THEN BEING FORCED TO EAT WHEN YOU FEEL FULL WITH A HUGE FUCKEN HEADACHE AND/OR 104 FEVER AND/OR BEING VERY DIZZY? I FUCKEN THOUGHT SO!
EIGHTH) WHOEVER WENT AROUND SAYING IT BETTER TELL ME THEMSELVES AND HAVE A GOOD APOLOGY AND REASON TO IT TOO OTHERWISE IM LOADING MY GUNS
WHO THE HELL WENT AROUND SAYING I HAVE SWINE FLU?
FIRST) I DONT
SECOND)NOW YOU HAVE MY MOM ON MY CASE SAYING THAT THEY'RE NOT GOING TO LET ME INTO THE SCHOOL AND THAT I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT ANYMORE SHE'S GETTING SOOO ANNOYING AND YOU KNOW WHAT WHOEVER YOU ARE, YOU'RE GONNA GET SHOT BY A BAZOOKA JUST LIKE WHOEVER GAVE ME THIS VIRUS THING
THIRD) DO YOU PEOPLE SERIOUSLY WANT ME DEAD THAT FUCKEN BADLY?
FOURTH)WHAT THE FUCK? IM SICK! I DON'T NEED RUMORS ABOUT HOW IM DOING WHEN IM SICK! HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT IF YOU HAD A MILLION PEOPLE SAYING THAT YOU'RE GOING TO DIE OR SOMETHING?
FIFTH) YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT IT IS? IT'S THE FLU! NOBODY SAID SWINE OR N1H1 IN FRONT OF IT SO IF YOU SOMEHOW HEARD 4 - 5 EXTRA LETTERS/NUMBERS IN FRONT OF FLU YOU HAVE GOT TO GET YOUR EARS CHECKED OUT!
SIXTH)IF ANY OF YOU PEOPLE ARE GONNA START ASKING ME ANY FUCKEN QUESTIONS THE MINUTE I STEP IN WITHOUT ME VOLUNTEERING TO GIVE ANY INFORMATION, IM GONNA EXPLODE ON YOU AND IF I DONT MAKE YOU CRY; YOU'LL AT LEAST FEEL CLOSE TO IT!
SEVENTH) DON'T TELL ME TO CHILL! YOU WANNA BE THE ONE LYING IN BED FOR A FEW DAYS BEING FORCED TO DRINK GALLONS OF WATER THAT TASTE BITTER TO YOU AND THEN BEING FORCED TO EAT WHEN YOU FEEL FULL WITH A HUGE FUCKEN HEADACHE AND/OR 104 FEVER AND/OR BEING VERY DIZZY? I FUCKEN THOUGHT SO!
EIGHTH) WHOEVER WENT AROUND SAYING IT BETTER TELL ME THEMSELVES AND HAVE A GOOD APOLOGY AND REASON TO IT TOO OTHERWISE IM LOADING MY GUNS
Monday, May 11, 2009
Emergency Room and North Shore Pediatrics
So yesterday I had a fever of 103.9 and I was dying?
I felt like i was since tylnenol and motrin didn't work on me and my fever just kept rising...
So after seeing my fever that high and unreactive to the meds that are supposed to work, my mom drove me to north shore (cause elmhurst just leaves you to die) and they put me in the Emeergency room thingy...
That was actually the first time I've been in the hospital as like a patient since I was born...so it was an intimidating experience..
Well right now I don't feel that much better so I can't make this post as long as all of the others...Sorry!!!!
Byeee (oh and I have this Flu A Positive which i dont really know what it is...getting dizzy now so I'm going back to bed...)
I felt like i was since tylnenol and motrin didn't work on me and my fever just kept rising...
So after seeing my fever that high and unreactive to the meds that are supposed to work, my mom drove me to north shore (cause elmhurst just leaves you to die) and they put me in the Emeergency room thingy...
That was actually the first time I've been in the hospital as like a patient since I was born...so it was an intimidating experience..
Well right now I don't feel that much better so I can't make this post as long as all of the others...Sorry!!!!
Byeee (oh and I have this Flu A Positive which i dont really know what it is...getting dizzy now so I'm going back to bed...)
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Sickie + Breakdown
So yesterday after I got home, I kinda had a little emo/suicidal rant which lead to one of my every now and then mental breakdowns. So it just so happens that all of the stress I had along with taking a nap with the windows wide open and no blanket, I'm sick. Don't worry, it's not the swine flu, its mostly allergy triggered + stress + the "fatal" nap. Fever of 101.8 as of now, my mom gave me this pill thingy that I don't even really know what it is but the doctor said for me to take it (its green! =D) and I just finished watching Shugo Chara Doki!! episode 82. I feel really horrible right now but at least it's physical and not mental, although my brain does hurt...a lot....My brain cells are getting burnt so if I happen to forget my CT lines, everything I've learned this year, as well as all of you people, remember I love you people!
I'm hoping that I'm going to get better by tommorow morning cause obviously, on monday I have a spanish presentation worth 10% of my grade and on tuesday I have my CT performance (possibly) and I don't plan on failing a class anytime soon.
>.> I hate getting sick! It makes me feel horrible! And now I can't even see Sangmi T___T
Ugh hope I don't die (lol from lack of seeing sangmi as well as headache).
Either way byeeeeeee
Friday, May 8, 2009
At School
So i'm at school right now and I'm really bored, just took the middle states quiz thingy. FFF meeting number 5? was today and it failed. So here I am ready to rant:
-First! Don't bother coming to FFF if you're not gonna be cooperative or just do your homework! You arent supporting me at all that way.
-Second! I AM THE PRESIDENT NOT ANYONE ELSE! GET THAT THROUGH YOUR HEADS! If you're not going to listen to me but you'll listen to kenton, he already has a club for you to do that, dont come to mine just to ignore me.
-Third, I've been nice and whatever for the other meetings but this is it, you people want to come in a not cooperate? DON"T EFFIN COME! I dont need any of you people ruining my club! You come cause you want to!
-Fourth, from now on im giving the club structure and im not going to be that nice anymore. I don't care if you end up hating me, but its my club, I DO WHAT I WANT WITH IT! NOT YOU!
-Fifth, if you're part of the board and you don't come, I'm kicking you off. That means R.Z.
-Sixth, I do need help to bring this club into order, I dont appreciate being un-respected.
Byeee
-First! Don't bother coming to FFF if you're not gonna be cooperative or just do your homework! You arent supporting me at all that way.
-Second! I AM THE PRESIDENT NOT ANYONE ELSE! GET THAT THROUGH YOUR HEADS! If you're not going to listen to me but you'll listen to kenton, he already has a club for you to do that, dont come to mine just to ignore me.
-Third, I've been nice and whatever for the other meetings but this is it, you people want to come in a not cooperate? DON"T EFFIN COME! I dont need any of you people ruining my club! You come cause you want to!
-Fourth, from now on im giving the club structure and im not going to be that nice anymore. I don't care if you end up hating me, but its my club, I DO WHAT I WANT WITH IT! NOT YOU!
-Fifth, if you're part of the board and you don't come, I'm kicking you off. That means R.Z.
-Sixth, I do need help to bring this club into order, I dont appreciate being un-respected.
Byeee
Thursday, May 7, 2009
First Post =O
So, this is my first post on blogspot and I've been meaning to create a blog for the longest time!
I don't really have any experience with blogging although you're apparently supposed to write things that happen in your life or things that you find interesting or think that others will find interesting. So in my life, things are always really chaotic. The mirror mirror on the wall seems to hate me, prince charming seems to have found another cinderella, neverland isn't getting any closer to me, and I don't happen to remember my closet bringing me into some fantasy land. I guess you can say I'm nobody out of the ordinary just that I have a lot of things going on in my life that I can't control. I guess I float my boat (with a few holes in it) and wherever the tides take me will be wherever I end up, and I guess I can't exactly steer away cause if I let go of the holes, I'll sink. (Weird analogy eh?) Well that's kind of what fantasia means! ^__^
So recently, I've been having trouble with this club that I've made called FFF. The original plan of it didn't draw any people to it and in remaking it, everyone has seemed to think of FFF as a place to waste time. So in attempt to make it seem like a club with a little bit more structure, I thought of the idea of teaching ballroom dance as the theme for May but apparently, nobody likes the idea although a few people think that it's a fine idea. (Although, im pretty sure that I heard one or two of them talking behind my back and saying that it's actually not a good idea.)Some of them use "Im not a good dancer" as an excuse, but I just want to teach some basics to the members and its just solid steps that don't matter based on how "good" you are at dancing. I think FFF is dying so... Any ideas? Anyone want to help? It would be very appreciated. Thank you for(wasting/taking) your time to read this. ^__^
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