posting

posting despite nobody probably reads anymore.
1:03AM...for some reason this seems early now~ :/
A lot of people dislike cpop for some reason. And turning back to it 1 hour ago randomly, cpop is actually really good...it's just that a lot of the mainstream stuff is crap, obscure songs are amazing...
Kpop gets all the hype now...and i'm definitely not hating. I love kpop, i'm addicted. But i think that people who like kpop so much should also give their neighbors a chance. Cpop and Jpop are really good depending on the songs just so often ignored and it makes me really sad.
Sure cpop and jpop stars may not be as good looking sometimes...but it's music...you listen to it...you don't look at it!

I also like american pop mainstream non mainstream music as well. I think it doesn't matter where your music is from, as long as you like it. Right?

So that being said and expressed, i really need to go do my math homework like a good a+ (i lied, A) student T___T FML. FML FML. -sigh-

Oh. It's Late.

I took a nap from 5-9pm so right now it's 1:49AM and I am incapable of sleeping.
Well actually, i'm sleeping as soon as i finish typing this up, just needed something to keep my attention span for a while. lalalala~~~
I really can't wait for winter break~~
And my term paper is due so soon, i'm terrified.

It's a bit too late for me to make a lengthy content-full post, so this will be pretty vague. Tomorrow's going to be a pretty cool day cause i said so. haha. It's cause it's a half day...i need to get a camera for art homework though..
And i have english, global, and math homework i havent done...not to mention a spanish test...uhhhh wups?

It's Wintertime!!!!....again?

I remember the rant post i made last year about not being able to wait for winter.
Guess who takes that back? I mean...it's FREEZING. Maybe i'm just not creating enough body heat this year (I be a coldie?) but feeling like i'm in an icecube around twice a day isn't really helping me in any way shape or form. Especially when I'm looking for reasons to procrastinate my global homework for another hour or two.
OH! Something interesting.
What's the point of reading blogs? I mean, you're literally wasting your own life reading about someone else's life...and technically i'm wasting my own life by writing out the sad story of my life which mr.diaz does not want to know. (lawl)
I really can't wait for summer. This year has been complete shit. 3 B+'s on my first report card, this is the worst report card i've gotten since...7th grade? haha
usually is a shatton of A-'s...and while the average comes out to the same thing, the B+'s still don't look particularly appetizing. My weighted GPA is going to come out hideous. A+, A, B+, B+ for the 4 main subjects...@___@

Moving on from grades which nobody ever wants to talk about, I've lost my appetite for winter. It doesn't attract me anymore. I just freeze and my extremities are so cold, they hurt. That's all winter has done for me. No benefits at all. Not to mention I have to go along on my merry way and buy stuff for people for the holidays....

Wait...that makes me sound mean...obviously holiday shopping is not an obligation, but I kind of want to...ya'know just to feel nice and enjoy the gift of giving? I'm a bit sad, i didn't really get any christmas gifts last year...but then again i'm not particularly close to anyone...-weeps cause she feels like a loner-

So this is my wintertime rant, just thought I'd post something after this huge haitus...and probably only 2 people will read this post anyways...or less...my in-activeness is not really attracting any readers o.o
maybe i should post something so controversial, it gets on 4chan and then people start spamming and like stalking me down and stuff....
wait.
that's creepy.

Loser on Vacation.

Loser. I just missed 11:11...i looked at the clock at 11:05 and the next time i looked it was 11:17. Not like you could have reminded me anyways cause you're always asleep by then..i just check the clock more often when you're here to see how much longer i have to deal with talking to you.

>__> i didn't get to make a wish today for either 11:11...it makes me sad. And there's no airplane in the night sky...and (duh) no shooting stars.

It was really hot today. What about in Canada? Did ya find my maple syrup lollipop? If you at it, im eating you. RAWR. then NOM. >:) dont think pervy. cause eating involves biting and chomping and gnawing and all that stuff. yeahhh ;)

Reguardless, you've left me in such utter boredom, i decided to start learning for the E test thats coming up. I guess that counts as studying...but im not studying anything, im just being taught stuff that i never learned...(fine im making an excuse. whatever)

I started drawing a lot more too. I'm more productive when you're not around, maybe you should just disappear, then i'd be a mastermind at progressing in life. You're too time consuming. I can't even play a game peacefully when you're around you jealous one. I miss you. And i swear thats the only time i'll admit it. Cause otherwise you're just a loser who takes up too much of my time.

I've turned nocturnal now that you're gone. I don't have to wake up earlier to maximize the amount of hours i get to speak to you before you go off on some wild expedition with your bromances or with your bed (sleep). hm...so this was life before i came to know you well...its enjoyable. >:) YEAH YOU HEARD ME! ENJOYABLE!

Naw jk. You owe me like a thousand hugs when you get back. X's and O's by the way.
Stupid Canada. The entire world has migrated there...its like mexicans moving up into the US while Americans are moving up into Canada...where are the Canadians gonna go? Visit Santa?

I dug up this lego CD game that i had from 2001...apparently it doesnt like windows 7 too much...

And for some reason, as i'm writing this i have this huge feeling that you're asleep or off partying with some canadian chick...or dude...considering it's you. Back to my nocturnal-ness, i currently sleep at 3AM average and wake at 3:30PM average. There goes a huge chunk of my day. I should really sleep more on schedule. Should i stay awake to see the sun rise sometime?

I'm so bored, now i'm just writing to pass time. I started watching anime's and reading manga. I started this anime about baking...were you here when i started it? yes you were...but i stopped once i realized there was no romance...how boring. I'm back to reading Gakuen Alice cause of the bishies >:) and cause it has magic AND cause it has some romanticness in it (unlike you.a) you're not a bishie b) you dont have magic c) you're not romantic.) see what i did thar?

Come back soon before i start being a vampire. Really, im turning my clock around more and more by the day. So much energy to burn so little ways to burn it.

And I guess i'm not seeing inception...ever. Nobody's seeing it with me or everyone's already seen it. -sigh- And sangmi's cheese fry didn't make her miss enough of it so that she has to see it again to get the main point.

Did i really write this much about a loser on vacation and what it's done to me?...wow i need a life. -goes out to party and hooks up with some hot dude- yupp now thats the life >:)

Oh you demanding people.

After requests for new posts, here it is!
And even though I would love nothing more then to sink into my seat, sip on lemon tea, and watch Anime, here it is. xD

1) SUMMMMMMMMMMMERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!
Oh how many months have i waited for my beloved summer? <33333
It's funny cause over the weekends during the school year, i would sleep for 16 hours and wake up with bags under my eyes, but just this one night, after sleeping for 14 hours, all signs of shadow underneath my eyes are gone. (Yes, that IS the first thing i noticed this morning (errr afternoon))

Gah I'm not really in the mood to post on my blod >:O.
I wanna just...do nothing. xD
I'm totally going to grow fat this summer, just watch. I'll come back from shanghai weighing like 150 pounds. xD

I can't wait for Shanghai!! Yet I sorta kinda can. It's a weird feeling. I mean i would love nothing more then to stay in NYC and chill with everyone but then..shanghaiiii <3

I is blabbing! But remember how i had the long list about good things about winter? Well here's my good long ass list about things I like for the summer!

My birthday. August 3rd. Remember it!!!!!
Bright sunshine days.
Sprinting from shade to shade cause it's so damn hot in the sun @__@.
Jumping into pools and shivering cause the water is so cold, but then coming out and thinking "OH SHIT IT'S HOT -jumps back in- It's coolldddd"
Pouring water over your head.
Putting icecubes in your pocket to keep cold and then losing all the feeling in your thighs.
Sweating o.o...JUST KIDDING. I hate sweating.
The feeling you get when you walk into an AC'ed room after being outside for a long time.
Those cool breezes that remind you why spring was a "better season". But no, not really, nothing beats summer.
Standing in front of fans and following them as they turn around. Until you realize you can just stop the rotation. XD
Slumping over the couch and groaning about how bored you are.
Drinking iced drinks.
Putting cold water bottles against your neck and sighing involuntarily.
Wearing shorts.
NO HOMEWORK. OR WORK. OR TESTS. OR SCHOOL. OR WAKING UP EARLY. OH MAH GAWWWW.
I'm tired of typing. It's too...summery to do anything. Anyone wanna hang out with me? I'm free like every day of the week! Until I go to shanghai (6/27 - 7/27).
Make your reservations ;). Lol jkjk <3

Tuesdays =D

Hehe sorry for my empty post.
I know today isn't Tuesday, it's obviously my other triple free day, Thursday. But I couldn't help but make a post about Tuesdays. I LOVE Tuesdays!
Back in elementary school I always had gym (favorite subject back then) on Tuesdays!
Back in 6th grade I also had gym on Tuesdays. =D Talk about awesomeness.
In 7th grade my Tuesdays were Math Free Spanish Free Free Science Social Studies, isnt that awesome?
Last year my Tuesdays were Lab Free Free Global English Spanish Math, double lunch and a lab! Talk about awesome morning. ^__^
This year my Tuesdays are Math Spanish Lab Free Free Free Global. Awesomeness? Thought so! AND this year my Tuesdays are with the awesomest people! It's so cool!

Now moving onto "real" stuff as Dou likes to call it, although I'm not sure what real stuff is in his opinion...heh
9 days till a month <3
13 days till Winter Break
9 days of school till Winter Break

I'm so excited for Winter Break! I want snow though. hehe.
Late night conversations with the randomest people.
Waking up to see the world covered in a pure sheet of newly fallen snow.
The crispness of the air after it snows.
Seeing your breathe as you breathe out cause the air is cold enough.
Christmas lights in the nighttime.
Wrapping paper designs.
Getting tangled in tape and ribbon.
Taping my finger onto gifts by accident.
Seeing everybody smile.
Warm drinks in cold hands.
Warm drinks as they go down your throat and warm up your entire body.
Putting your face over the steam from warm drinks to warm yourself up.
How about just warm drinks?
Comfy winter scarves.
Walking into your home realizing its SO MUCH WARMER.
Roasting your hands over the heater.
Eating snowflakes as they fall from the sky.
Coming back from playing for hours in the snow and realizing that your floor is warmer than your feet.
Snow sinking into your gloves and somehow going down your shirts, melting into water that just sits there.
Building snowcakes, cause I epically fail at making snow men, although I'm pretty good with making snow balls.
Writing on the snow that falls on car windows.
Slipping on the ice when it rains a bit after it snows.
Clinging onto fences to stop from slipping.
Running from revengeful people who don't understand that when I throw a snowball at them, they shouldn't throw one back in attempt to kill me. (ROFLMAO)
Stuffing snow down other people's shirts and hearing them scream at me in anger.
Watching snowflakes melt on your hands as they fall from the sky.
Colors everywhere, all of the lights decorating the sky.

Winter holiday carols coming up next week! TOTALLY!

Wanna request some carols?
=D

Because I Can

I feel like doing something crazy. Something that can get me killed. 50/50 live/die chance...maybe even 25/75 live/die chance.
Something that would make me feel glad that I'm alive and make me feel lucky.
I cant do this anymore.
I really cant.
My home doesn't smell like home anymore, it smells like cigarettes.
My clothes don't smell like me anymore, they smell like cigarettes.
My bed isn't mine anymore, it's my bad grandma's.
My clothes are't mine either. They're all in what used to be my bedroom, which I don't go into anymore why? Because going in there is like walking myself into hell.
My privacy isn't mine anymore. The old lady walks in whenever she feels like it, reguardless if your naked or whatever.
Nothing I own is mine anymore. The floor where I get to sleep even got invaded by a fucking spider, and you know what? That spider is still alive cause the old lady said that they're good luck. fuck her.
I sleep in the same room as my mom and my dad on the floor when the old hag next door has her own queen sized bed...aka my ex-bed why? because nobody, not even her own son is willing to sleep next to her. The room outside is perfectly fine but I'm not allowed to sleep there because its "too cold". I find that completely ridiculous. So instead I sleep on the floor, wake up every morning looking at the dust bunnies under my parents bed with an aching back, and I have nowhere to change. I can't go into my ex-room cause the hag is still sleeping, I can't change in my parent's room cause my dad is there, I can't change in the bathroom cause my mom says so without any reason, and I can't change in the perfectly valid room outside, cause it's too cold.

You know how some people can't focus on anything when someone else is glaring at them? Well I'm that type of person, and having a grandma who does not respect anyone else at all implies having an 83 year old bitch glaring at the back of your head for 10 minute periods at 5 minute intervals. If my parents thought i was slow with homework before, it's at least 7x that now.

I don't want to come home anymore. It's not home anymore. It doesn't feel like home, it doesn't smell like home, it doesn't even look like home. Sure I've never liked coming home in the first place, but it's ridiculous when you have NOWHERE in your own home to stay without being bitched at.

I hate this. I hate this so much. I hate everything that's been going on. Can't the bitch just leave me alone? Why the fuck does she have to mind everyone's business and then bitch about it? Why does my mom have to go and say bad things about me whenever she gets the chance? Why does my dad always call me useless when I'm trying? Why doesn't anyone in my family understand that I have a lot of stuff to do and that I need some sort of escape or life? Why doesn't my dad understand that nobody other than him enjoys spending time with his mom? Why doesn't my mom understand that everybody else in the world has their problems too? Why doesn't the bitch understand that nobody likes her?

I really really really want to just disappear. I want to just vanish and never have to come back. To not have to ever get home cause the streets are a lot more comforting than this one square foot of supposed privacy.

I hate everything thats been going on. I hate it.